Lord Give Me The Strength.

Every day is a battle for me.
I dream about it.
I think about it throughout my day.
I find in others something I desire again.
I see my friend go through the same problem.
Finding escape in the saddest ways.
Smoking. Drinking. Over-eating.

One thing I never want to hear.
One thing that will boil my blood, grit my teeth, and cause me anger.
"Where are all the good guys in this world"
These 'good guys' were always there.
They are the ones you look over.
The ones you take for granted.
The ones you tell yourself "they are just a friend".
The one you leave for someone more 'spontaneous'.
The one that laughs with you when you're funny.
The one that argues with you when you're mad.
The one that isn't scared to speak his mind,
because he knows that you're the one thing in his life that brings his endless happiness.

How do you fall out of love?
Does love truly come and go?
Do you have to be mature enough to fully understand love?
Or is love something that is universal?
Is it a game?

I put a smile on my face.
My 'pride' smile.
If anyone ask me everything is okay, I'm laughing.
Cuz no one knows the joke is on me.

Man up Eric. Man up....
No.. I think that she needs to 'Woman down'.
Open up. Talk to me. Let me know what went wrong.
Don't tell me "I don't know".
Is the joke on me?
If not, I need to take this face paint and red rubber nose off.
I sure do feel like I'm the clown.
So you tell me..

Lifes TOUGH.

Life has been very rough lately.
Ever since school has started, it has felt as if I have become more high strung.
Balancing school, work, and a social life isn't an easy task.
I've found time to be with the ones i love, my friends, my family..
but sometimes its just not enough...
When I'm stressed, depressed, or in a bad mood...
theres only a handful of people that I can express myself to.
I try not to let my stress influence my attitude towards the people i care about..
but its extremely hard to contain as of late.
I can tell myself a hundred times over that what I'm going through will soon drift away,
and i can be myself again..
At that moment reality hits me over the head.. and I realize that its NOT that simple..
LIFE is NOT that simple.
We all go through our hard times.. we all go through pain, arguments, stress, bumpy roads,
EVEN SUICIDAL THOUGHTS.. [maybe.. haha] but for every bad day.. theres a good.. and I believe that..
I've always been known as the "LOOSE CANNON" or the "ANGRY DUDE" or as someone that means A LOT to me "Mr. TEMPER HEAD". I think A WHOLE LOT.. and sometimes my mind plays games with me.. and I try and fight back... but Im not mentally strong enough to win every battle.. Theres times in life where I'm going to PMS more then EVERY girl.. theres times when I'm going to be the nicest guy in the world.. but right now.. I'm extremely overwhelmed.. and when I'm overwhelmed.. Im a very big pessimist.. also I get the feeling that if I want to excel in school... I need to lose my social life completely.. and I'm NOT ready to do that.. because theres too many people i care about and don't want to lose.
Writing things out.. is a way of escape.. and its really helping me control my own emotions.. and realize the things i'm going through.. so I'll leave you with my thought of the day..
"through up's and down's.. I'll stand by you till the end of time." EYK

Color: Black
Model: EX
Engine: D16Y8 [sing
Sellin my 2000 Honda Civic.


Add-ons: Sparco Short Shifter
ADR [Black on Silver] rims
Angel Eyes head lights
aftermarket Tail Lights
Tinted Windows
Around 85k miles
Autopage alarm system
Aftermarket cluster
Sparco pedals
4 Strut Bars [Tenabe under hood and in trunk, Megan under car in front and in rear]
Full Body kit [Front and rear bumpers, and side skirts]
Engine Dress-up Kit [red block with red wiring]
DC Headers
AEM Cold Air Intake
Sony CDX M9905X Deck [runs for about 400 dollars]
Coil-overs [dont know what brand]
Recent Tune-up
about 10,000 miles on the tires [Neo-Gen Nitto]
Only used Royal Purple and Mobil One oil.



Fun car to drive around, but I'm going into my third year in college so I'm looking for a new look. The car is nice though. It gets from 29-32 MPG.










































$7,500 (OBO)

Biggest Purchase Online.

You may hear it a lot, but the biggest purchase I've made online was a PC. I have actually bought numerous computers online. One for my own use, for my brother, for my friend, and a laptop for school purposes. When I think about the risks of shopping online, I tend to think about pros and cons. The pros of shopping online would be the convenience. How else can you buy a computer or the shoes you've always wanted while sitting on your butt and clicking your mouse? Savings is another big thing that comes to mind when shopping online. I can easily find discount coupons for nearly everything I want to buy. There are universal coupons for certain stores that you can easily find by typing in "[shop name] coupons". I just recently bought two jordan track jackets online and used a 20% off coupon that I found on google.
The only con's I personally see is SHIPPING.. AND HANDLING... I HATE shipping and handling... but if I'm buying a lot of things at once, it isn't as bad as if I want to buy a $5 book.. and have $4.99 shipping and handling.
The whole thing about, "your card can get hacked.. what about the risks??" that stuff doesn't come into account for me. With the world today, there are millions of viruses.. thousands upon thousands of hackers, but as these hackers and viruses get better and better at their jobs, so do companies with security on their websites. I guess I can confess that I only purchase items online from sites that I trust, such as Eastbay, Champs sports, Footlocker, Amazon, but random sites that offer deals; I can't find myself to ever believe them. I guess its more of a security paranoia. Other then that... I would recommend shopping online for absolutely everything... except maybe a bottle of hotsauce.. haha

Online Communities

People CAN be a part of a community online.. because:

Online communities consist of many different components, where a majority of them are relatively similar to real life communities. The one component that may separate some online communities would be location.
Many online communities are local communities, where people can meet online and in real life. While other online communities, cover a wide variety of locations, where people can't really relate on local things but rather on their common interests and dedication.
Many online communities share common interests. It's what keeps people interested in the community, and makes them WANT to provide to it. You can say that the sense of belonging is also a big reason as to why people would want to be in, if not, stay in a online community. If people really like chatting with you, or like your contribution then it gives you a reason to stay. The structure of an online community is based around the rules, laws, and regulations. Like real life, the online community has rules that users and members must abide by, or else suffer penalties. Communities both online and real life need to have loyalty among members of the community. Without loyalty, theres nothing tieing people down and keeping them committed to it.

Online or real life, a community is a gathering of people with shared interests, committment, and locality.

What a LOSER

So I just have to get this off my chest. One of my friends that I work with has a paper due tomorrow. He was scheduled to work from 4:30 PM - 9 PM.. He called in and said that his car was in the shop. So I asked him why he called in to work, and he told me that honestly.. he didn't even start his 7 PAGE essay thats due tomorrow. So I felt somewhat bad for him, since he has so much work to do, but that doesn't hold me back from scolding him though. We work at a restaurant, so if one of the servers doesn't show up then everyone is miserable. I told my friend that he was really messed up for calling in. He shoots back that he has a 7 page paper due tomorrow, and I shot back saying that he had 2 weeks to do it, and that why should everyone else be penalized and suffer for his mistakes and laziness? He blew it off like nothing happened... and still doesn't realize the fact that he's making our fellow workers suffer because of his self-centered attitude. I hate this.. I really do.
That was just something I had to get off my chest.
It's been tearing at me since this morning.

The 411 on the Sonics.

David Sterns comment, made the Washingtons government and citizens feel a bit uneasy and offended. Stern has talked about how the Sonics' situation is different then with the Trail Blazers and Hornets. He goes on to say that the lease that the Sonics have with the city is by far the WORST in the NBA. He even said things along the line of saying if Seattle doesn't want the NBA to be a part of its city, then so be it.. we won't ever have one again.
I agree with The Commish here, because I feel as though the state of Washington isn't doing anything at all to try and stop this State changing event from happening.
David Stern is working hard to make sure that the Sonics stay in Seattle. I support him in his quest to saving the Sonics. The governor of Washington has just recently said "I don't want, a couple of years from now, to look back with regret that we didn't do everything we could to keep the Sonics and the Storm." This bring some what of a glimmer of hope for us Sonics / NBA fans that want to keep the NBA alive here.
To make things worse.. the Sonics have the smallest arena in the NBA... let's be serious. This is a team that's been around 40+ years, and your not even going to support them by making them a new Arena?? Take some money out of my damn taxes and pay for the Sonics AND the arena..