Lifes TOUGH.

Life has been very rough lately.
Ever since school has started, it has felt as if I have become more high strung.
Balancing school, work, and a social life isn't an easy task.
I've found time to be with the ones i love, my friends, my family..
but sometimes its just not enough...
When I'm stressed, depressed, or in a bad mood...
theres only a handful of people that I can express myself to.
I try not to let my stress influence my attitude towards the people i care about..
but its extremely hard to contain as of late.
I can tell myself a hundred times over that what I'm going through will soon drift away,
and i can be myself again..
At that moment reality hits me over the head.. and I realize that its NOT that simple..
LIFE is NOT that simple.
We all go through our hard times.. we all go through pain, arguments, stress, bumpy roads,
EVEN SUICIDAL THOUGHTS.. [maybe.. haha] but for every bad day.. theres a good.. and I believe that..
I've always been known as the "LOOSE CANNON" or the "ANGRY DUDE" or as someone that means A LOT to me "Mr. TEMPER HEAD". I think A WHOLE LOT.. and sometimes my mind plays games with me.. and I try and fight back... but Im not mentally strong enough to win every battle.. Theres times in life where I'm going to PMS more then EVERY girl.. theres times when I'm going to be the nicest guy in the world.. but right now.. I'm extremely overwhelmed.. and when I'm overwhelmed.. Im a very big pessimist.. also I get the feeling that if I want to excel in school... I need to lose my social life completely.. and I'm NOT ready to do that.. because theres too many people i care about and don't want to lose.
Writing things out.. is a way of escape.. and its really helping me control my own emotions.. and realize the things i'm going through.. so I'll leave you with my thought of the day..
"through up's and down's.. I'll stand by you till the end of time." EYK